I had a very scary seizure event last night.  I was actually able to witness the entire seizure.  I was to see my vision changing on me and I was unable to control it.  I was not able to type things into the keyboard very easily.  It was like I had no control over what was happening with my body.  I ended up taking the bug spray out to my parents yet on my way back up the stairs I ended up tripping on the stairs.  I also had no postictal state.  Unless it was my arms and legs feeling so weak afterwards.  I hope that this may be only a one-time event because it was very scary to witness.

I am glad that one of my major stress in my life is now gone.  I now don't have the major issue with my checking account.  Now the only stress that I have in my life are taking my certification exam and to deal with my disorder.  At one point I was dealing with three different stress issues which made everything insane.  It also made it hard to concentrate on other things.  Now that this one issue is gone it is the biggest issue that I have been dealing with for several months.  I am so glad that it is over with.

I am really looking forward to going to downtown days here in Lee's Summit to see a cover band play a tribute to Queen tonight.  It is an artist that I have listened to for some time.  It will also be fun to see some friends of ours that we have known for several years and have been hanging out with for a while.  I am anxious to see what songs the band will play and I am currently listening to their albums right now on my ipod so that I know all of the words so that I can sing along with them.  I can't wait until 9:30 tonight to see and hear them sing.

Last night me and my family went to a party celebrating the return of some friends of ours from their cruise. and we cooked out and had a good time.  Although, when they started talking about their vacation it made me want to be on a vacation.  I started thinking about when we went on our cruise for my brother and sisters graduation.  This was a great time and I will never forget that trip due to the fact that I won $300 dollars in the casino on the ship.  We also saw many things on the island that we visited on the trip and I got to smoke my first Cuban cigar.  I am certainly looking forward to our family reunion in August of this year where I can see more of my family that I have not seen in a long time.  I have had several times where a vacation would just be the perfect thing for me so that I can get away from all of the stress that is going on in my life at this time.      

My life at this point is a big stressor.  This is due to the fact that I had to resign from my job due to the fact that I had a disorder and I am currently recieving no income.  So now my checking account is decreasing rapidly and I am in the process of having to fight social security to get benefits with a lawyer.  Although it takes forever for social security to ever make their decision.  I hope that this issue will be resolved quickly so that I can have one less stressor to deal with in my life.  I have completed my jury duty and found it to be a very interesting experience even though it took up my entire day and I was exhausted at the end of the day.  I am also still trying to prepare for this national CCA certification exam which will be coming up on July 13.  I hope that all of these stressful issues will end in a good way so that I can get my life back to normal and I will be able to relax.

I have so much going on in my life right now that I don't know what to do!  I have to study for this major national certification exam and I have jury duty coming up.  In addition to the fact that my friend seems to be having some issues with someone and is not wanting to talk about it.  I am also dealing with social security with a lawyer helping me which is very stressful since they just seem to take their time with making a decision.  I am trying my best to keep myself sane in this time.  I have been waking up in the middle of the night which I believe is due to the stress that I am going through.  If I can get things under control I am sure that it will be very beneficial to my life.

I wish that my friend would come to the realization that the person that she is hanging out with behind my back is to old for her to be with due to the fact that he is 52 and she is only in her 20s.  The difficult part is how to bring her to this realization.  This makes it quite a challenge on how to show her that it is wrong without causing an argument as we have in the past.  Does anyone have any suggestions?

I really wish that I would be able to handle a lot of this stress that is happening right now in my life.  I am having to deal with a big certification exam and I will have jury duty as well in May.  I have been trying to keep myself calm throughout the process of my legal fight with social security as well.  If anyone has any suggestions on how to deal with this stress let me know.

Thanks,

Andrew Cooper

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